Anne’s Bringing-up Is Begun

FOR reasons best known to herself, Marilla did not tell Anne that

she was to stay at Green Gables until the next afternoon. During the

forenoon she kept the child busy with various tasks and watched over her

with a keen eye while she did them. By noon she had concluded that Anne

was smart and obedient, willing to work and quick to learn; her most

serious shortcoming seemed to be a tendency to fall into daydreams in

the middle of a task and forget all about it until such time as she was

sharply recalled to earth by a reprimand or a catastrophe.

When Anne had finished washing the dinner dishes she suddenly confronted

Marilla with the air and expression of one desperately determined to

learn the worst. Her thin little body trembled from head to foot; her

face flushed and her eyes dilated until they were almost black; she

clasped her hands tightly and said in an imploring voice:

“Oh, please, Miss Cuthbert, won’t you tell me if you are going to send

me away or not? I’ve tried to be patient all the morning, but I really

feel that I cannot bear not knowing any longer. It’s a dreadful feeling.

Please tell me.”

“You haven’t scalded the dishcloth in clean hot water as I told you to

do,” said Marilla immovably. “Just go and do it before you ask any more

questions, Anne.”

Anne went and attended to the dishcloth. Then she returned to Marilla

and fastened imploring eyes on the latter’s face.

“Well,” said Marilla, unable to find any excuse for deferring her

explanation longer, “I suppose I might as well tell you. Matthew and I

have decided to keep you--that is, if you will try to be a good little

girl and show yourself grateful. Why, child, whatever is the matter?”

“I’m crying,” said Anne in a tone of bewilderment. “I can’t think why.

I’m glad as glad can be. Oh, _glad_ doesn’t seem the right word at all. I

was glad about the White Way and the cherry blossoms--but this! Oh, it’s

something more than glad. I’m so happy. I’ll try to be so good. It

will be uphill work, I expect, for Mrs. Thomas often told me I was

desperately wicked. However, I’ll do my very best. But can you tell me

why I’m crying?”

“I suppose it’s because you’re all excited and worked up,” said Marilla

disapprovingly. “Sit down on that chair and try to calm yourself. I’m

afraid you both cry and laugh far too easily. Yes, you can stay here and

we will try to do right by you. You must go to school; but it’s only a

fortnight till vacation so it isn’t worth while for you to start before

it opens again in September.”

“What am I to call you?” asked Anne. “Shall I always say Miss Cuthbert?

Can I call you Aunt Marilla?”

“No; you’ll call me just plain Marilla. I’m not used to being called

Miss Cuthbert and it would make me nervous.”

“It sounds awfully disrespectful to just say Marilla,” protested Anne.

“I guess there’ll be nothing disrespectful in it if you’re careful

to speak respectfully. Everybody, young and old, in Avonlea calls me

Marilla except the minister. He says Miss Cuthbert--when he thinks of

it.”

“I’d love to call you Aunt Marilla,” said Anne wistfully. “I’ve never

had an aunt or any relation at all--not even a grandmother. It would

make me feel as if I really belonged to you. Can’t I call you Aunt

Marilla?”

“No. I’m not your aunt and I don’t believe in calling people names that

don’t belong to them.”

“But we could imagine you were my aunt.”

“I couldn’t,” said Marilla grimly.

“Do you never imagine things different from what they really are?” asked

Anne wide-eyed.

“No.”

“Oh!” Anne drew a long breath. “Oh, Miss--Marilla, how much you miss!”

“I don’t believe in imagining things different from what they really

are,” retorted Marilla. “When the Lord puts us in certain circumstances

He doesn’t mean for us to imagine them away. And that reminds me. Go

into the sitting room, Anne--be sure your feet are clean and don’t

let any flies in--and bring me out the illustrated card that’s on the

mantelpiece. The Lord’s Prayer is on it and you’ll devote your spare

time this afternoon to learning it off by heart. There’s to be no more

of such praying as I heard last night.”

“I suppose I was very awkward,” said Anne apologetically, “but then, you

see, I’d never had any practice. You couldn’t really expect a person

to pray very well the first time she tried, could you? I thought out a

splendid prayer after I went to bed, just as I promised you I would.

It was nearly as long as a minister’s and so poetical. But would you

believe it? I couldn’t remember one word when I woke up this morning.

And I’m afraid I’ll never be able to think out another one as good.

Somehow, things never are so good when they’re thought out a second

time. Have you ever noticed that?”

“Here is something for you to notice, Anne. When I tell you to do

a thing I want you to obey me at once and not stand stock-still and

discourse about it. Just you go and do as I bid you.”

Anne promptly departed for the sitting-room across the hall; she

failed to return; after waiting ten minutes Marilla laid down her

knitting and marched after her with a grim expression. She found Anne

standing motionless before a picture hanging on the wall between the

two windows, with her eyes astar with dreams. The white and green light

strained through apple-trees and clustering vines outside fell over the

rapt little figure with a half-unearthly radiance.

“Anne, whatever are you thinking of?” demanded Marilla sharply.

Anne came back to earth with a start.

“That,” she said, pointing to the picture--a rather vivid chromo

entitled, “Christ Blessing Little Children”--“and I was just imagining I

was one of them--that I was the little girl in the blue dress, standing

off by herself in the corner as if she didn’t belong to anybody, like

me. She looks lonely and sad, don’t you think? I guess she hadn’t any

father or mother of her own. But she wanted to be blessed, too, so she

just crept shyly up on the outside of the crowd, hoping nobody would

notice her--except Him. I’m sure I know just how she felt. Her heart

must have beat and her hands must have got cold, like mine did when I

asked you if I could stay. She was afraid He mightn’t notice her. But

it’s likely He did, don’t you think? I’ve been trying to imagine it all

out--her edging a little nearer all the time until she was quite close

to Him; and then He would look at her and put His hand on her hair and

oh, such a thrill of joy as would run over her! But I wish the artist

hadn’t painted Him so sorrowful-looking. All His pictures are like that,

if you’ve noticed. But I don’t believe He could really have looked so

sad or the children would have been afraid of Him.”

“Anne,” said Marilla, wondering why she had not broken into this speech

long before, “you shouldn’t talk that way. It’s irreverent--positively

irreverent.”

Anne’s eyes marveled.

“Why, I felt just as reverent as could be. I’m sure I didn’t mean to be

irreverent.”

“Well, I don’t suppose you did--but it doesn’t sound right to talk so

familiarly about such things. And another thing, Anne, when I send you

after something you’re to bring it at once and not fall into mooning and

imagining before pictures. Remember that. Take that card and come right

to the kitchen. Now, sit down in the corner and learn that prayer off by

heart.”

Anne set the card up against the jugful of apple blossoms she had

brought in to decorate the dinner table--Marilla had eyed that

decoration askance, but had said nothing--propped her chin on her hands,

and fell to studying it intently for several silent minutes.

“I like this,” she announced at length. “It’s beautiful. I’ve heard it

before--I heard the superintendent of the asylum Sunday-school say it

over once. But I didn’t like it then. He had such a cracked voice and

he prayed it so mournfully. I really felt sure he thought praying was a

disagreeable duty. This isn’t poetry, but it makes me feel just the same

way poetry does. ‘Our Father who art in heaven, hallowed be Thy name.’

That is just like a line of music. Oh, I’m so glad you thought of making

me learn this, Miss--Marilla.”

“Well, learn it and hold your tongue,” said Marilla shortly.

Anne tipped the vase of apple blossoms near enough to bestow a soft

kiss on a pink-cupped bud, and then studied diligently for some moments

longer.

“Marilla,” she demanded presently, “do you think that I shall ever have

a bosom friend in Avonlea?”

“A--a what kind of friend?”

“A bosom friend--an intimate friend, you know--a really kindred spirit

to whom I can confide my inmost soul. I’ve dreamed of meeting her all

my life. I never really supposed I would, but so many of my loveliest

dreams have come true all at once that perhaps this one will, too. Do

you think it’s possible?”

“Diana Barry lives over at Orchard Slope and she’s about your age. She’s

a very nice little girl, and perhaps she will be a playmate for you when

she comes home. She’s visiting her aunt over at Carmody just now. You’ll

have to be careful how you behave yourself, though. Mrs. Barry is a

very particular woman. She won’t let Diana play with any little girl who

isn’t nice and good.”

Anne looked at Marilla through the apple blossoms, her eyes aglow with

interest.

“What is Diana like? Her hair isn’t red, is it? Oh, I hope not. It’s bad

enough to have red hair myself, but I positively couldn’t endure it in a

bosom friend.”

“Diana is a very pretty little girl. She has black eyes and hair and

rosy cheeks. And she is good and smart, which is better than being

pretty.”

Marilla was as fond of morals as the Duchess in Wonderland, and was

firmly convinced that one should be tacked on to every remark made to a

child who was being brought up.

But Anne waved the moral inconsequently aside and seized only on the

delightful possibilities before it.

“Oh, I’m so glad she’s pretty. Next to being beautiful oneself--and

that’s impossible in my case--it would be best to have a beautiful bosom

friend. When I lived with Mrs. Thomas she had a bookcase in her sitting

room with glass doors. There weren’t any books in it; Mrs. Thomas kept

her best china and her preserves there--when she had any preserves to

keep. One of the doors was broken. Mr. Thomas smashed it one night

when he was slightly intoxicated. But the other was whole and I used to

pretend that my reflection in it was another little girl who lived in

it. I called her Katie Maurice, and we were very intimate. I used to

talk to her by the hour, especially on Sunday, and tell her everything.

Katie was the comfort and consolation of my life. We used to pretend

that the bookcase was enchanted and that if I only knew the spell I

could open the door and step right into the room where Katie Maurice

lived, instead of into Mrs. Thomas’ shelves of preserves and china. And

then Katie Maurice would have taken me by the hand and led me out into a

wonderful place, all flowers and sunshine and fairies, and we would have

lived there happy for ever after. When I went to live with Mrs. Hammond

it just broke my heart to leave Katie Maurice. She felt it dreadfully,

too, I know she did, for she was crying when she kissed me good-bye

through the bookcase door. There was no bookcase at Mrs. Hammond’s. But

just up the river a little way from the house there was a long green

little valley, and the loveliest echo lived there. It echoed back every

word you said, even if you didn’t talk a bit loud. So I imagined that it

was a little girl called Violetta and we were great friends and I loved

her almost as well as I loved Katie Maurice--not quite, but almost, you

know. The night before I went to the asylum I said good-bye to Violetta,

and oh, her good-bye came back to me in such sad, sad tones. I had

become so attached to her that I hadn’t the heart to imagine a bosom

friend at the asylum, even if there had been any scope for imagination

there.”

“I think it’s just as well there wasn’t,” said Marilla drily. “I

don’t approve of such goings-on. You seem to half believe your own

imaginations. It will be well for you to have a real live friend to

put such nonsense out of your head. But don’t let Mrs. Barry hear you

talking about your Katie Maurices and your Violettas or she’ll think you

tell stories.”

“Oh, I won’t. I couldn’t talk of them to everybody--their memories are

too sacred for that. But I thought I’d like to have you know about them.

Oh, look, here’s a big bee just tumbled out of an apple blossom. Just

think what a lovely place to live--in an apple blossom! Fancy going to

sleep in it when the wind was rocking it. If I wasn’t a human girl I

think I’d like to be a bee and live among the flowers.”

“Yesterday you wanted to be a sea-gull,” sniffed Marilla. “I think you

are very fickle minded. I told you to learn that prayer and not talk.

But it seems impossible for you to stop talking if you’ve got anybody

that will listen to you. So go up to your room and learn it.”

“Oh, I know it pretty nearly all now--all but just the last line.”

“Well, never mind, do as I tell you. Go to your room and finish learning

it well, and stay there until I call you down to help me get tea.”

“Can I take the apple blossoms with me for company?” pleaded Anne.

“No; you don’t want your room cluttered up with flowers. You should have

left them on the tree in the first place.”

“I did feel a little that way, too,” said Anne. “I kind of felt I

shouldn’t shorten their lovely lives by picking them--I wouldn’t want

to be picked if I were an apple blossom. But the temptation was

_irresistible_. What do you do when you meet with an irresistible

temptation?”

“Anne, did you hear me tell you to go to your room?”

Anne sighed, retreated to the east gable, and sat down in a chair by the

window.

“There--I know this prayer. I learned that last sentence coming

upstairs. Now I’m going to imagine things into this room so that they’ll

always stay imagined. The floor is covered with a white velvet carpet

with pink roses all over it and there are pink silk curtains at the

windows. The walls are hung with gold and silver brocade tapestry. The

furniture is mahogany. I never saw any mahogany, but it does sound _so_

luxurious. This is a couch all heaped with gorgeous silken cushions,

pink and blue and crimson and gold, and I am reclining gracefully on it.

I can see my reflection in that splendid big mirror hanging on the wall.

I am tall and regal, clad in a gown of trailing white lace, with a

pearl cross on my breast and pearls in my hair. My hair is of midnight

darkness and my skin is a clear ivory pallor. My name is the Lady

Cordelia Fitzgerald. No, it isn’t--I can’t make _that_ seem real.”

She danced up to the little looking-glass and peered into it. Her

pointed freckled face and solemn gray eyes peered back at her.

“You’re only Anne of Green Gables,” she said earnestly, “and I see you,

just as you are looking now, whenever I try to imagine I’m the Lady

Cordelia. But it’s a million times nicer to be Anne of Green Gables than

Anne of nowhere in particular, isn’t it?”

She bent forward, kissed her reflection affectionately, and betook

herself to the open window.

“Dear Snow Queen, good afternoon. And good afternoon, dear birches down

in the hollow. And good afternoon, dear gray house up on the hill.

I wonder if Diana is to be my bosom friend. I hope she will, and I

shall love her very much. But I must never quite forget Katie Maurice

and Violetta. They would feel so hurt if I did and I’d hate to hurt

anybody’s feelings, even a little bookcase girl’s or a little echo

girl’s. I must be careful to remember them and send them a kiss every

day.”

Anne blew a couple of airy kisses from her fingertips past the cherry

blossoms and then, with her chin in her hands, drifted luxuriously out

on a sea of daydreams.